2025-03-31
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... It's the end of March. The month has gone very fast.
Frankly, it's been a month of terrible disarray. I am not too against that, and really it's just an opportunity for April to pick up. I've ended up questioning a lot of what I'm doing, whether it's making me happy, etc. I'm... less depressed, I assume because it's starting to get quite warm and sunny, but there is still a way to go.
Not sticking to the planned schedule, I read three books: Die Wand, that I had started, Altered Traits, which was good and made me think more seriously about meditation (review here) and A Court of Thorns and Roses (very short review here). I started Retrieving Nicaea, and also Never Let Me Go, but have not finish them before the end of the month.
Frankly, I haven't really measured what I've done on these. I don't think I have done a lot.
Again, I haven't measured what I've done, and I haven't done a lot. I did a fair bit on the second week, but the other weeks not really.
... Hmm. I haven't done my month end for the finances yet, but I know I had to borrow some money from my future self. About 200 quid, mainly because I wanted to spend £170 on various operas throughout the year, plus the tickets for the gig for Arch Enemy and Eluveitie in November.
Some work has been made on the allotment this month, and next month, given that I'll have farmer's hours (British summer time), I should get a lot more done.
Only two. I went to the British Academy who gave a talk on lived religion as seen in objects in the historical records, and the "PAS" (Portable Antiquities Scheme). The other was The Darkness at Wembley at the end of the month. Both quite enjoyable.
I actually got my ISA and LISA sorted out before the end of the financial year which is good. I'll get £1k free from the government (only for house buying purposes though) which is... decent I suppose.
From a goals perspective, this has been a bad month I suppose. But, I don't really care. I think next month I can mull over what exactly I want to do with goals, etc., but for now, I'm happy that I'm getting... happier. I think the six months of more-or-less depression I've had is gradually lifting (then again, I also said this last month), and I'm looking forward to being able to spend more time at the allotment.
Plus, I'll be back home (not housesitting my grandma's), so I can dedicate a bit more time to horticulture generally. That'll be fun.
All in all, I think it's a not great month, but one that lends itself to a good deal of reflection on what I'm doing, and even whether the metrics (and especially, the manners) by which I'm judging myself are good or not. It's needed reflection, so good in that respect, I suppose.
I did think that maybe it would be better if we returned to April (or, well, March 25th) being the beginning of the new year. It seems to be the place, for me at least, where I sort of get a grip on myself again after winter.